Thanks everyone, what a week its been.

This week has been a very long week i had my ups and downs but the most of the time it was up Greg was home for the first 3 days to help out in any way he could which was such a relief, it meant that i didn't have to deal with the kids on my own, i just needed a little help but i didn't know how to ask it took me to have a break down in the main street to relies that i really did need some help, and also a big thank you to aunty Jeneen for making me relies that its ok to get the help to ask for is so THANK YOU.

Thursday was one of my best days I've had in such a long time, Cathy came and spent it with me and we just sat and talked and talked, i think i may of talked the ears of her LOL but it was so good to catch up with her as i haven't done that in what seems like ever and it was well over due, she makes me laugh and smile which i haven't done in sch a long time now, so Cathy my love thanks very much i love you with all my heart. I just want you to know that.

As for my darling husband you have been number one, you are the best husband anyone could ever want, you were there when i feel to my lowest point ever and i have always known that you are there when i needed you the most, you steped up to the plate even though you don't understand what i was going through, sometimes you try very hard to understand but just dont get it but thats ok you are only human and i know that and for that i want to say a big thank you, you are the love of my life and that's never going to change, i have always known this since the day that my eyes meet your, you are the one that i want to spend the rest of my life with and nothing will ever make us fall apart. Thought i should tell you that too.

To everyone else who has helped me out in the past week thanks for being there even though Ive pushed you away it's been good to see you all care, sometimes you cant help or cant give me the help that i need so don't feel bad if i say no or its alright no thanks, cause i know you all care its maybe because i don't know how to ask or don't want to trouble you all, so please just be patient and ill come around eventually as i know now that you are all there for me when i need you.

On a brighter note i've gotten into the QE2 in canberra to get some help just waiting on a phone call to say that i have to be there on what day, i guess it's going to help alot for me i the long run and teach me a few things or two, i know it's going to take sometime to recover but i have to take a few days at a time and not try to fix it over night, so the first step for today was to start Dominic on thickened formula and give him the breast milk first then the formula to top him up,so i did that and he's been a little better but its only been one feed so i'll see how it goes over the weekend, his reflux is getting worse so i have to see the Dr on monday at 8.30am for him then im off to my Dr's at 12 noon for my self so its going to be a long day for me next week but once agian it's all about gettting the help that i need.